LOS ANGELES (AP) — Ronda Rousey says she had dark thoughts after she lost her bantamweight title to Holly Holm in Australia.

Rousey said Tuesday during an appearance on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" that she thought to herself, in her words, "I'm nothing," after her first defeat since joining UFC.

Rousey told DeGeneres that her relationship with UFC heavyweight Travis Browne helped get her through.

She says she decided she needed to stay alive and wanted to have his babies.

Rousey won her first 12 mixed martial arts fights before stepping into the cage against Holm in Melbourne last November. Holm finished her off with a devastating kick to the head.

Rousey told DeGeneres that she wants to be the one to beat Holm.